Charlene R. Schubert

It's been a while since I've come here to write. Just thinking about you. Miss you so much....Sometimes, it doesn't feel real, most of the time. It hurts when it does feel real. I cried today. There are a few Christmas songs that remind me of you.
I wonder what would be different if you were here. I thought about how I always wanted to send you in a limo, buy you a PT Cruiser, and sit with you at

It's been a while since I've come here to write. Just thinking about you. Miss you so much....Sometimes, it doesn't feel real, most of the time. It hurts when it does feel real. I cried today. There are a few Christmas songs that remind me of you.
I wonder what would be different if you were here. I thought about how I always wanted to send you in a limo, buy you a PT Cruiser, and sit with you at a ballet...Nutcracker would have been nice. Sometimes, my heart wants to turn back the clock...Sometimes, it says it was all meant to be, and you are at peace. It still hurts. I wish the love we shared could be expressed by a hug, a dance. I love you, always<3>

Hi, Mom. I'm thinking of you today and every day. Today we celebrated Cayleb and Serenity's Birthday. We talked about you at dinner. Serenity said that she asked you if you were afraid to die. She said you told her that you were, but you weren't. I remember the last conversation we had. I was so scared of you going. I was scared to live here without you...I still am. You were my everything. Neither one of us were perfect,

Hi, Mom. I'm thinking of you today and every day. Today we celebrated Cayleb and Serenity's Birthday. We talked about you at dinner. Serenity said that she asked you if you were afraid to die. She said you told her that you were, but you weren't. I remember the last conversation we had. I was so scared of you going. I was scared to live here without you...I still am. You were my everything. Neither one of us were perfect, but you were my everything. I knew that no matter what, you were always there for me. Thank you for that. Now, you aren't here and it feels like no one else can take that place. I love you...I miss you so much...Thanks for being there for me. I loved being there for you:) Talk to you later. love your daughter, MARY.

Hi Mom,

Happy Thanksgiving! We love you. We miss you.

Hi Mom,

We celebrated your birthday today. We took you to the pizza place. Before we went to dinner we went to the cemetery to give you some flowers, but they were closed. So we took some flowers down to the river and let them go in the water. We let you know how much we miss you and love you. The flowers were pink carnations, your favorite. I keep thinking of the last conversation we had. I keep thinking of

Hi Mom,

We celebrated your birthday today. We took you to the pizza place. Before we went to dinner we went to the cemetery to give you some flowers, but they were closed. So we took some flowers down to the river and let them go in the water. We let you know how much we miss you and love you. The flowers were pink carnations, your favorite. I keep thinking of the last conversation we had. I keep thinking of your eyes and how we cried together. You knew what was happening. I wish I had known then what I know now. I could have done more or something different. Anything for you to be here. You mom and we couldn't stop it....whyyyyyyy? I had so many hopes for us. I thought you were coming home.
I love you and I will always miss you sooooo much. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
I Love you.

Hi Mommy,
I'm just thinking about you. It hurts so much that I can't be with you. I was thinking of those Barbies that you used to bring to me, the ones you got from McDonalds. I used to line those up on my dresser and think about you. I love you so much. I remember a time when I wanted you so bad and I couldn't have you when I wanted you, but at least I knew it would not

Hi Mommy,
I'm just thinking about you. It hurts so much that I can't be with you. I was thinking of those Barbies that you used to bring to me, the ones you got from McDonalds. I used to line those up on my dresser and think about you. I love you so much. I remember a time when I wanted you so bad and I couldn't have you when I wanted you, but at least I knew it would not last forever. This is irreversible. This will never change as long as I am here. WOOOOOW!!!! I wish I could see you and hear you laugh. It's amazing how now you are only in my memeories and it's not the same. I miss you and I love you so much. I miss you and I love you I miss you and I love you sooooo much.....My mommy. you worked so hard to do the best you could. You caught six buses a day to hold down two jobs so we could have an apartment and food and I could have clothes. You had a great work ethic. You will always be a very strong woman to me.

Hi Mom,

I've been thinking about you a lot today. I thought of how I would call you right now, if you would only be there. I thought about dancing with you today. I would hold you so tight and dance with you if you were here. I'm not sure why you had to leave. Sometimes I wonder if it would different if I had prayed more, or had done more of something, anything, anything to keep you here. I guess

Hi Mom,

I've been thinking about you a lot today. I thought of how I would call you right now, if you would only be there. I thought about dancing with you today. I would hold you so tight and dance with you if you were here. I'm not sure why you had to leave. Sometimes I wonder if it would different if I had prayed more, or had done more of something, anything, anything to keep you here. I guess I couldn't control that. I just wish you were here to dance with me. I love you Mom. I will always dance with you in my heart.

Hi Mama,

It's been a year and 2 weeks since you moved on. I still think about you and i still miss you so much. I wish I could hold you again and see your pretty smile I'm mad that I won't have dinner with you anymore. I'm mad that there was nothing else done to keep you here. I can't believe this is so final. No matter what i do or say, I'll never see your face here with me.

Hi Mama,

It's been a year and 2 weeks since you moved on. I still think about you and i still miss you so much. I wish I could hold you again and see your pretty smile I'm mad that I won't have dinner with you anymore. I'm mad that there was nothing else done to keep you here. I can't believe this is so final. No matter what i do or say, I'll never see your face here with me. I'm mad that you didn't tell me what was going on. You thought I would worry, but I could help you. I could have been there for you. I love you. You were and are important to me. I love you and I always will. You were the best Mama you could be and you never gave up. You are free and for that I am happy. I LOVE YOU:)

Hello Mommy,

Just want to say I am thinking of you. I love you. I miss you. It's been almost 1 year since you've gone and we still miss you everyday. You're sweet smile, your loving ways, we miss all of you. I doin pretty good in school. Feels kind of crazy sometimes, but I'll make it through, like I always do. I know you are with me. I am loosing a second mother. She has cancer and she is going through the exact same thing you went through. It's like deja vu. I miss you Mom. Love you:)

i love you. i miss all the fun stuff we had together.i miss her very much, infact i cry alot about you.

Hi Mom,
It's Christmas Eve and I miss you so much... Hospice sent us a really pretty Dove ornament in memory of you. It's beauty could never match the beauty of you Mom. We'll be lighting a candle for you. I had the big wooden picture, of you me and Dar and Dale, in my closet. I brought it out today Mom. I put it on my window ledge. I guess I didn't want to look at it for a long

Hi Mom,
It's Christmas Eve and I miss you so much... Hospice sent us a really pretty Dove ornament in memory of you. It's beauty could never match the beauty of you Mom. We'll be lighting a candle for you. I had the big wooden picture, of you me and Dar and Dale, in my closet. I brought it out today Mom. I put it on my window ledge. I guess I didn't want to look at it for a long time because it reminded me of all the pain that happened in the family. I want to face all that pain and move through it. I know you always wanted that Mom. I kinow you are feeling all the joy and happiness you wanted here on Earth. I'm sorry you never got to that recognition. I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do. I hurt myself by hurting you.