"As Eli's mom I am so sad...Every year I do our traditions, but I can't get past how many years have gone by that I have not confronted Eli's father. I have been so scared of my reaction to him that I sacrificed confronting him and going to prison v.s. being here for Ash & Mikey.
Is it time for justice? Is it time to accept my complacency?
Questions left unanswered/unfulfilled...Sometimes I feel the need to go APE SHIT!!AHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I wish Capitol Letters could be more bold... Once I found out that my first born son died of Leukemia, shit, I became a medic to help with MS....really? am I the one? does it take this much cert. to call 911? Jebus I became a "Health Care Specialist" in order to treat a deteriorating man with MS. I never knew it was my skills as a "MOM" that would enhance my career."
– ang, mom,
Vancouver, WA, Feb 14, 2015
"Dreams of you suddenly entered my mind. I try to sleep longer to somehow make these dreams lucid, so I can spend more time with you. I literally have no one in my life that comes close to understanding my loss of you. Gawd I miss you! I have now been a mom for almost 18 years-minus my hard times, that was only a couple years yet just enough to lose you.
I worry lately about things from the past, I remember the day I went to social services and they told me I could get no help unless I took all you kiddos on the street...I chose "NO" but if I had chose yes and let you be with me I never would have lost you, life would have sucked for all of us but at least....never mind all that though. I think I may have lost either way, but I miss you sooooooooo much! It will never feel fair, even if I was to confront your father."
– Angela, mom,
vancouver, WA, Feb 11, 2015
"Dear Elijah, you will always be in my heart. sometimes i imagine you walking around the house and slapping my brother on the head for no reason. But still, when i hear the name Eli i think of you. Even though in my head i don't remember seeing you to remember your face... I WILL ALWAYS I MEAN ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU!!!"
– Ashley O'Brien, Sister,
Vancouver, WA, Nov 17, 2012
"Samantha...Every loss in life leaves an indescribable feeling...it comes as a shock...resonates...and eventually helps us derive a new perspective...please remember as you journey through life, that death is one of the most influential parts of the journey...and you are only stronger for every brush with death you incur... I created this site to remind us of that...all that are touched by such sadness..I truly hope you take the realization of loss and make it your own...make it an experience worth sharing in a positive way!...and always come back to this forum if you just can not share what you need to get out..Lots of Love from me and Eli!"
– Angela O'Brien, mommy,
vancouver, WA, Nov 09, 2012
"Elijah was my best friend in Kindergarten...I saw him in a yearbook picture this morning,so I decided to look him up. I'm so sorry I had no idea. Elijah was the kind of person who gave this world a fighting chance to be better than it was.The world will be at loss without him."
– Samantha M., Old Best Friends,
Vacaville, CA, Nov 08, 2012
"I was thinking of you tonight. It always seems just when things are getting the toughest, we remember you. Ashley is so upset that we never had the proper burial we should have had with you. She questions why..why did Poppy get so much attention and her own brother did not? I can only explain to a certain extent...final thought is we miss you and you are loved and never forgotten. We miss you sooooooooooooooooooooo much honey!"
– Angela O'Brien, mother,
Vancouver, WA, Oct 02, 2012